Warning: Real talk is about to happen here. This month is national mental health awareness month, and I find it a little ironic that a bit of depression kicked in with me yesterday on May 1st. I woke up and had this overwhelming feeling of sadness and heaviness in my chest, for no apparent reason. I just wanted to stay in bed all day and sleep. For me that is my first sign that depression is right around the corner. All the feels, slowly come in. Doubting my self-worth, doubting any and everything that’s good in my life. Its a slippery slope, and one I am very familiar with. So what did I do? I went back to sleep. My body felt so tired, I just wanted to sleep. So I did. When I woke up again, the feeling was still there, and back to sleep I went. When I could finally pull myself out of bed, I sat in silence. Alone with my thoughts, feeling every single one and trying to process them as best as I could. Facing all the issues that were bringing me down and getting to the root of my depression. What was the root? Well, it turned out to be the very thing I teach my clients not to do. Attachment. I had attached myself to outcomes. I had attached my self-worth to what other people think of me. When in fact its none of my business what anyone thinks about me. So delving into each attachment I had placed, and turning it around and practicing non-attachment, I can tell you is very hard. It is something I work on daily, always striving to not attach myself to ANYTHING. One of my favorite quotes attributed to Buddha is “Attachment is the root of all suffering”.
So I will leave you with this. Lets practice together non-attachment and being present in this moment. Be grateful for everything you have in your life. As long as you are doing the best you can, and giving 100% nothing else matters. AND get out there and move!! Exercise is the best anti-depressant!
If you need help or are in a crisis, please call 1-800-273-8255.
Love and light!